When I Left Home For the First Time

Hey Everyone!

You remember that example of the bird that protects its eggs until they hatch, then take care of the birds until they grow and then it allows them to leave the nest and see the world on their own?

The same thing happens to us, humans. Since childhood, we have felt protected, preserved and extremely safe and that is why, when it comes time to leave home, we start feeling anxious and restless. Exactly the same happened to me when I left my home for the first time.

I did my graduation from the same city where I lived all my childhood but to do a master's from IIT, I had to leave not just the home but my state as well. And willingly or unwillingly, I did so. I prayed with all my strength and hopes to get to college in my own city but destiny won.

A little excited, and a little nervous, I prepared myself to leave my home. I didn't even look in the eyes of my mom, because I knew I was not that strong. The entire duration of my journey, I was feeling extremely low, sad and depressed. I was not happy about getting into IIT but was sad about leaving my people behind.

I reached the place where I was expected to spend the next two years of my life, I was feeling nothing but when my father also left the campus leaving me behind, that's where I had to be strongest, I didn't look at him directly, I was not even uttering a single word because I knew I would start crying any time forgetting all my strength and breaking the character.

When I saw my people on the video call, I turned the back camera on to make them unable to see my face which was obviously sad. I was missing them on simple instances of the day and night and believe me I still do, I will keep doing this forever. 

Anyways, I just tried to cope with everything, tried to hide my weakness, tried to fake the strong girl character, but nothing worked out except for the words by Bunny from YJHD which says " kahi pahuchne ke liye kahi se nikalna jaruri hota hai", which means in simple words, if we desire to get something, we need to sacrifice something else. How could the Bollywood girl in me not believe this, so yeah, here I am writing this from the hostel room of IIT with my people in my heart, memories and aspirations in my brain and a smile on my face.

That's it, that's all

See you on another blog

Till then, keep smiling and spread love.

- Nidhi